Most of my life I've experienced some form of Insomnia. Either, I was able to fall asleep and not stay asleep. Or, was not able to fall asleep until earlier morning hours. Sometimes, I didn't fall asleep no matter how hard I tried. My internal clock has been off and I can't seem to reset it! As a result, I have been forced to depend on sleeping aids if I am to be functional the next day. However, there are nights like last night, when even with the help of a sleeping pill I was still wide awake. But, not only that! My mind was torturing me like it hasn't in a very, very long time.
Earlier that afternoon, we had been invited to my sister and brother-in-laws to have a traditional Puerto Rican meal comprised of root vegetables and bacalao called Verdura con bacalao. Now, the bacalao is salted codfish, onions, tomatoes, avocado and olive oil all mixed together. Maybe, it wasn't insomnia at all; but, a serious case of heartburn? Lol..... Anyway,one of my nieces was visiting from out of town and this was a good opportunity for all to visit with her. That should be a good thing, right? Not to me. There is such a let down whenever I visit with my family and siblings. It's always been that way and I always return home feeling sad and depressed. I know why....and will not elaborate here. I will just hint that I feel like a stranger around my family. I have absolutely nothing in common with my sisters; and their disdain for me is evident when I don't go along with their programs. So, this was one of the things torturing me while I was trying to fall asleep.
The other thing that was adding to my discomfort was that my husband's snoring next to me sounds like a "mack truck" rolling through!! And to add insult to injury, the above statement kept running through my brain......"Wondering Generality or Meaningful Specific" over and over again. How could this be?. My mentor and one of my idols Zig Ziglar was in head and testing me. Suddenly everything and every unpleasant situation from my past started coming back to me and I was starting to feel a strong sense of panic. I actually started crying..........my husband's snoring in the background like a constantly dripping faucet you can't shut off........I felt total despair!!!
At some point, I was finally able to fall asleep. But only got a few hours of sleep........When I awoke, my husband who was unaware of my difficult night, was bringing me a cup of coffee. It does not escape me that my mind, my sub-conscience or even my spirit guides are using the night time hours to make me think about those things that I hide away and don't deal with during my day hours. Maybe, my spirit guides want me to think about the lessons learned over the years reading self help books from the likes of Zig Ziglar, Wayne Dyer, Dale Carnegie and others.
When I pray, and I do that a lot, I ask for help with my marketing efforts and with the internet business' I promote but I don't ask for help with my day to day, interpersonal relationships with family. My mind was telling me that I need to evaluate everything that I do including those that profess to love and care about me. Everything rushing in at the time I felt panic, was nothing more than the intensity and overwhelming emotions that I've been holding in for too long. This was a warning that it is at a CRITICAL time in my life and it's time I start to address these situations and do it.......IMMEDIATELY!
I love what I am doing with my One24 business and my soon to be live - Viralprint. As a matter of fact, I've lost unwanted pounds without even trying using NatraBurst from One24. But, that's a separate blog story. My first commitment and priority will be to them. Over the next few months, I will also be evaluating my goals and whether I just want to be a "wondering generality" or do I believe that I can be "A Meaningful Specific".........I choose the later!!! I have my work cut out for me........it won't be easy. It's a matter of survival and I desperately need a good nights sleep!
Angela Zechinato
http://www.angieloves124.com
More to come...........
About Me
- Angela Zechinato
- Viera, Florida, United States
- Living the Florida Lifestyle with my husband Max and enjoying my life with 2 furry poodles Sissy and Missy who I call my children. My human children are all grown and on their own. I am a proud grandmother of 5. We live in Sunny, Central Florida in a gorgeous house on a lake. I am blessed to have overcome my abusive upbringing and have decided that it is time to write about it to help others who experienced the same physical and emotional abuse. This Blog is dedicated to those who have remained silent!!
Sunday, April 01, 2012
Thursday, August 04, 2011
I didn't Like It! The Food Was Terrible!!
OK! So, here's the deal. Because mom is laid up and can not take care of herself and my father (remember him? He is 90 years old!) it has fallen on my sister and I to take turns over at their house to help them. I have taken the day shift and my sister stays during the night. My poor mother cannot even get out of bed on her own and so therefore is totally reliant on us. This also means that meals need to be prepared so, I am doing the dinner shift and my sister prepares breakfast.
My father has become quite the character in his old age and thanks to his sense of humor, I am holding up better than expected - under the pressure of trying to take care of a many times difficult and demanding mother - who when well can try the patience of Job let alone when she is under the weather. He is a bit of a snitch and never misses a chance to tell on someone.
The other morning, my sis forgot to put the eggs in the pan to boil and instead just boiled the water. Well, he didn't know that there was a monitor in the kitchen as well as in mother's room. So, he shuffled over to her room and he told mom what happened. He did not know that every word could be heard in the kitchen as they were having a good laugh at my sister's expense. Another day he went to mother's room and pointed at her saying "Old lady I hope you never get out of that bed!" I said "pop that is not nice" he turned around and told me that he is enjoying all the attention and having us around. He is also enjoying all the great meals he is getting! Today, I made a delicious chicken stew, (pollo guisado con arroz) with white rice, sweet plantains and french bread. Well, he sat down to eat and I went on to feed mother in her room. When I came back to the dining room. He looked at me very seriously and told me that he did not like his dinner and that it did not taste very good. When I walked over to him and looked at his plate it was totally clean and the chicken bones looked like someone had bleached them.....he gave me a sly look and began laughing.......he then said dinner was "beautiful and delicious"........
I find myself reciting the Serenity Prayer on a daily basis and at the same time looking forward to each day and the new adventure that awaits me in the life of my parents. Many people would not take on the responsibility of caring for their ailing elderly parents. It is hard, thankless and grueling work. I say thankless not to be mean.....what I mean is that they are not even aware of what we do sometimes and almost expect the care we provide. It doesn't occur to them that most elderly wind up at nursing homes. As long as we can provide the care, our parents will never have to worry about ending up in a nursing home with strangers around them. But, I will admit at the end of the day, I go home and really enjoy my glass of wine; as I soothe my weary soul and tired body......... know what I mean? Got to love them..........lol
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Yellow Cake and Fresh Oranges!
It's been said that as your parents age the roles between them and their children change. The children start behaving like the parents and the parents start behaving like the children. Suddenly you find yourself speaking differently to them because maybe their hearing has changed or their eyesight is faltering. At times you have to speak more slowly in order for them to understand what you are telling them. Telling them a story might take a little longer because of all the interruptions and all the questions they ask. It actually gets to be quite comical when you consider it's your parents you are dealing with. The ones that raised you and were the pillars of strength; the ones you always looked up to, were now looking up to you!
My parents are in their late 80's and I can honestly say that I am truly enjoying them more now than ever. Keeping in mind that the parent/child relationship while I was growing up, was absolutely awful and memories and my past will remain as such as I have no desire to rehash them. All of the forgiving has taken place and besides with my parents being in their 80's, they really don't remember too much so what's the point. They are very different now from the way they used to be. Now, when I stop by to visit them, they are like little kids because I hardly ever visit them empty-handed. For instance, mom loves to play scratch off lottery tickets. So I buy some for her and surprise her. Or maybe I stop by the grocery store and call her to ask her if she wants or needs anything. Due to their age, getting out and about is very difficult.
My focus is to bring them "goodies" they would not otherwise purchase for themselves. They live on a fixed income and mom tends to be very frugal. What's funny is that when I stop by, dad is usually in the bedroom and comes right out to see what I brought for him. He has quite a "sweet-tooth" and although he has to watch it due to his health, that doesn't stop him for craving cake, cookies and fruit. My philosophy is that at age 89 he should be able to eat whatever he wants within reason. This week I decided to make them a plain yellow cake and I also had these gigantic oranges the size of grapefruit that I knew they'd love. My dad is always amazed at my timing. Mom has just fixed him a cup of coffee and here I had cake for him. He says that I have ESP which I do because I always seem to know when he has a taste for a treat.
And just like two little kids they starting arguing about how many oranges each would get. And by the way, as I was leaving my dad said that he's been having a craving for coconut cookies. So guess what I'll be taking them on my next visit!
My parents are in their late 80's and I can honestly say that I am truly enjoying them more now than ever. Keeping in mind that the parent/child relationship while I was growing up, was absolutely awful and memories and my past will remain as such as I have no desire to rehash them. All of the forgiving has taken place and besides with my parents being in their 80's, they really don't remember too much so what's the point. They are very different now from the way they used to be. Now, when I stop by to visit them, they are like little kids because I hardly ever visit them empty-handed. For instance, mom loves to play scratch off lottery tickets. So I buy some for her and surprise her. Or maybe I stop by the grocery store and call her to ask her if she wants or needs anything. Due to their age, getting out and about is very difficult.
My focus is to bring them "goodies" they would not otherwise purchase for themselves. They live on a fixed income and mom tends to be very frugal. What's funny is that when I stop by, dad is usually in the bedroom and comes right out to see what I brought for him. He has quite a "sweet-tooth" and although he has to watch it due to his health, that doesn't stop him for craving cake, cookies and fruit. My philosophy is that at age 89 he should be able to eat whatever he wants within reason. This week I decided to make them a plain yellow cake and I also had these gigantic oranges the size of grapefruit that I knew they'd love. My dad is always amazed at my timing. Mom has just fixed him a cup of coffee and here I had cake for him. He says that I have ESP which I do because I always seem to know when he has a taste for a treat.
And just like two little kids they starting arguing about how many oranges each would get. And by the way, as I was leaving my dad said that he's been having a craving for coconut cookies. So guess what I'll be taking them on my next visit!
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Complicated Grief :Also Known as Prolonged Grief Disorder
Many years ago, I worked as a Family Service Counselor for a major Cemetery/Funeral Home Company. My job was to help families make final arrangements for the funeral and burial of their loved ones. From the minute they walked into our facilities, I was responsible for everything from supervising how their loved ones were "waked" to arranging of the type of graveside service requested. My job was to make sure that everything was done as specified and to make sure that the families were not inconvenience in any way. After the burial, I also helped in the bereavement process. By that I mean that if counseling was needed, I helped the families find the appropriate agencies. Everyone mourns in their own way!
When a loved one dies, there is a natural process of grieving that takes place. One of the worst things that can happen to anyone, is to have to bury a loved one be it a child, parent or spouse. And with each situation, the process varies. What I mean is that if we lose a parent who has been aged and in ill health, the loss is great but might not be as traumatic as the loss of a child; young or older. Nobody wants nor should have to bury a child. However life isn't fair and it happens. Sometimes we lose a spouse and again the grieving depends on how long the illness or whether it was sudden or due to aging.
In every instance the level of grieving varies. Many of us are able to move on from our loss within a certain amount of time and many times we are unable to move on period; while others are unable to get on with thier lives without great difficulty. What determines what is the right amount of time to grieve a loss? Is there a time clock that goes off and says alright enough of this, get back to your life and shake it off? I know that sounds a little harsh but I say that to make a point.
I have not been immune to loss as I have helped my own son bury his beautiful wife at the young age of 28 in 1997. My older brother lost a son the following year to violence. And last June, I received that dreaded phone call that my handsome, talented 27 year old Nephew was found deceased in his condo. As traumatic as this was to me, the level of pain and suffering experienced by his loving parents was no comparison. He was my younger brother's oldest son of two sons.
It's important to point out that my brother is a well known Senator in the state of Illinois and to protect his privacy, I will leave it there. He spent most of his career working in his community to help protect the young and doing all within his power to help everyone who sought him out. How was he to know that his background and experience would in no way prepare him for the brick wall of suffering he would crash into.The amount of grief and pain that he and my beautiful sister-in-law would encounter was unbearable then and still is today!
I know it's been 9 months and maybe it's time to get over it and on with their lives-right? Wrong!!!!!!
Over all these long months, my dear brother has been stuck in the limbo of the worst grief and suffering and physical pain anyone could ever be expected to tolerate. He has talked, cried and talked some more until he had no one else who would listen. After awhile most people unable to deal with this type of grief, became uncomfortable whenever he called or went to see them. FAMILY included! The average person is totally unprepared to help someone who is "stuck" in this hell! As his older sister, I am feeling so helpless at not knowing how to help him and it's killing me to feel his sadness! My fear has been that he would not be able to survive this and that the next phone call would be about his death. This thought has haunted me for months!
To his credit, he recently sent me a text telling me to google a paper that the Mayo Clinic wrote about Complicated Grief. Now, there was a name for what he was experiencing and also treatment! After all these months, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and a tremendous sense of hope!!! He is getting medication and whatever help he needs to get out of this hell which has kept him a prisoner for too long! He knows that I will be there for him no matter how long it takes and he will always have a sounding board in me. The important thing is that he is seeking a way out of his pain and suffering and for that I am very proud of him!
If you or a loved one is "stuck" and unable to move on from the loss of a loved one, maybe this might be of help. I am including the link to the Mayo Clinic paper. Please share this with everyone you know. This article is comprehensive and lists symptoms and what to do to get help.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/complicated-grief/DS01023
There is treatment and hope to help people with complicated grief come to terms with their loss and to help them reclaim a sense of joy and comfort.
When a loved one dies, there is a natural process of grieving that takes place. One of the worst things that can happen to anyone, is to have to bury a loved one be it a child, parent or spouse. And with each situation, the process varies. What I mean is that if we lose a parent who has been aged and in ill health, the loss is great but might not be as traumatic as the loss of a child; young or older. Nobody wants nor should have to bury a child. However life isn't fair and it happens. Sometimes we lose a spouse and again the grieving depends on how long the illness or whether it was sudden or due to aging.
In every instance the level of grieving varies. Many of us are able to move on from our loss within a certain amount of time and many times we are unable to move on period; while others are unable to get on with thier lives without great difficulty. What determines what is the right amount of time to grieve a loss? Is there a time clock that goes off and says alright enough of this, get back to your life and shake it off? I know that sounds a little harsh but I say that to make a point.
I have not been immune to loss as I have helped my own son bury his beautiful wife at the young age of 28 in 1997. My older brother lost a son the following year to violence. And last June, I received that dreaded phone call that my handsome, talented 27 year old Nephew was found deceased in his condo. As traumatic as this was to me, the level of pain and suffering experienced by his loving parents was no comparison. He was my younger brother's oldest son of two sons.
It's important to point out that my brother is a well known Senator in the state of Illinois and to protect his privacy, I will leave it there. He spent most of his career working in his community to help protect the young and doing all within his power to help everyone who sought him out. How was he to know that his background and experience would in no way prepare him for the brick wall of suffering he would crash into.The amount of grief and pain that he and my beautiful sister-in-law would encounter was unbearable then and still is today!
I know it's been 9 months and maybe it's time to get over it and on with their lives-right? Wrong!!!!!!
Over all these long months, my dear brother has been stuck in the limbo of the worst grief and suffering and physical pain anyone could ever be expected to tolerate. He has talked, cried and talked some more until he had no one else who would listen. After awhile most people unable to deal with this type of grief, became uncomfortable whenever he called or went to see them. FAMILY included! The average person is totally unprepared to help someone who is "stuck" in this hell! As his older sister, I am feeling so helpless at not knowing how to help him and it's killing me to feel his sadness! My fear has been that he would not be able to survive this and that the next phone call would be about his death. This thought has haunted me for months!
To his credit, he recently sent me a text telling me to google a paper that the Mayo Clinic wrote about Complicated Grief. Now, there was a name for what he was experiencing and also treatment! After all these months, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and a tremendous sense of hope!!! He is getting medication and whatever help he needs to get out of this hell which has kept him a prisoner for too long! He knows that I will be there for him no matter how long it takes and he will always have a sounding board in me. The important thing is that he is seeking a way out of his pain and suffering and for that I am very proud of him!
If you or a loved one is "stuck" and unable to move on from the loss of a loved one, maybe this might be of help. I am including the link to the Mayo Clinic paper. Please share this with everyone you know. This article is comprehensive and lists symptoms and what to do to get help.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/complicated-grief/DS01023
There is treatment and hope to help people with complicated grief come to terms with their loss and to help them reclaim a sense of joy and comfort.
If You Have Ever Bargained With God For Better Health.......You Need To Read This!
(March 8, 2011 - Originally posted July 30, 2009)
Have you ever bargained with God for better health? I have and this is a true story. Isn't it time to really do something about it. For two years I suffered as a virtual invalid due to Fibromyalgia, and Spinal Stenosis due to complications of back surgery with low energy and no stamina to even get out of bed. I started using MaxGXL in March of 2009 and even my own Doctor didn't believe it when he saw me in May. (Now actual results vary from person to person)
This is the March 8, 2011 and I am still totally medication free and my bed gets made up everyday as I no longer need to stay there all day). If you need verification my phone number is at the end of this post and I WILL be happy to tell you more about me and my experience,
Wouldn't it be great if you truly had a product that people wanted? (It works so well for me I decided to become an Associate and feel it is my responsibility to tell everybody about this marvelous and amazing product).
A product that was so unique that customers could only get it from you?
The company owned by Guthy-Renker (Pro-Activ) and Steven K. Scott (Total Gym) currently has several breakthrough products that are changing the way people build their home based business.... MaxGXL, MaxOne, Max-N-Fuze and recently added Visible Solutions Skin Care line.
MaxOne, for example, is a glutathione (Your Body's Miracle-Working Super-Protein) accelerator. Intracellular glutathione fights inflammation, preserving cellular health. It also works to help improve mental functions, increase energy, improve concentration, support increased exercise and improve heart and lung function-just to name a few of its benefits! The more glutathione a cell has, the better it can perform its function. Say NO to Accelerated aging and Say Yes to More Energy and Better Health!
The Wellness Industry is growing at a rate of $250 million a day, driven by the Baby Boomers, Gen X and Y and is now a $500 Billion industry on it's way to one trillion dollars. Best Selling Author, Paul Zane Pilzer says this:
"Let's take a look at two of the emerging powerhouse industries of today and
tomorrow-direct selling and wellness-and why, instead of simply
making a few dozen Henry Fords, Bill Gateses or Michael Dell rich, they are
creating fortunes for millions of home-based entrepreneurs."
If you are ready to begin to change your life, check out why doctors as well as athletes are embracing this product while at the same time creating your fortune in these emerging industries, click here to take the Max System Tour.
http://angielovesmax.com
Our team uses the best of technology to build at a rapid pace, but nothing beats speaking with a live person to get your questions, so feel free to give me a call.
Sincerely,
Angela Zechinato
Max International Independent Associate
P.S. Did you know that some of the richest people in the world own Network Marketing companies, including Richard Bronson, Warren Buffett and Donald Trump?
Contact ME:
Angela Zechinato
321-459-0402
azech49@gmail.com
http://angielovesmax.com
Have you ever bargained with God for better health? I have and this is a true story. Isn't it time to really do something about it. For two years I suffered as a virtual invalid due to Fibromyalgia, and Spinal Stenosis due to complications of back surgery with low energy and no stamina to even get out of bed. I started using MaxGXL in March of 2009 and even my own Doctor didn't believe it when he saw me in May. (Now actual results vary from person to person)
This is the March 8, 2011 and I am still totally medication free and my bed gets made up everyday as I no longer need to stay there all day). If you need verification my phone number is at the end of this post and I WILL be happy to tell you more about me and my experience,
Wouldn't it be great if you truly had a product that people wanted? (It works so well for me I decided to become an Associate and feel it is my responsibility to tell everybody about this marvelous and amazing product).
A product that was so unique that customers could only get it from you?
The company owned by Guthy-Renker (Pro-Activ) and Steven K. Scott (Total Gym) currently has several breakthrough products that are changing the way people build their home based business.... MaxGXL, MaxOne, Max-N-Fuze and recently added Visible Solutions Skin Care line.
MaxOne, for example, is a glutathione (Your Body's Miracle-Working Super-Protein) accelerator. Intracellular glutathione fights inflammation, preserving cellular health. It also works to help improve mental functions, increase energy, improve concentration, support increased exercise and improve heart and lung function-just to name a few of its benefits! The more glutathione a cell has, the better it can perform its function. Say NO to Accelerated aging and Say Yes to More Energy and Better Health!
The Wellness Industry is growing at a rate of $250 million a day, driven by the Baby Boomers, Gen X and Y and is now a $500 Billion industry on it's way to one trillion dollars. Best Selling Author, Paul Zane Pilzer says this:
"Let's take a look at two of the emerging powerhouse industries of today and
tomorrow-direct selling and wellness-and why, instead of simply
making a few dozen Henry Fords, Bill Gateses or Michael Dell rich, they are
creating fortunes for millions of home-based entrepreneurs."
If you are ready to begin to change your life, check out why doctors as well as athletes are embracing this product while at the same time creating your fortune in these emerging industries, click here to take the Max System Tour.
http://angielovesmax.com
Our team uses the best of technology to build at a rapid pace, but nothing beats speaking with a live person to get your questions, so feel free to give me a call.
Sincerely,
Angela Zechinato
Max International Independent Associate
P.S. Did you know that some of the richest people in the world own Network Marketing companies, including Richard Bronson, Warren Buffett and Donald Trump?
Contact ME:
Angela Zechinato
321-459-0402
azech49@gmail.com
http://angielovesmax.com
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Girly Things: The Importance of Female Bonding!
My memories of my childhood are quite vague and sparse. I don't remember if I had any close friends or kids I played with. I have visions of when I started school and being in first grade. The classroom had lots of fun things to do and we sang songs and played games. But, no memories of other little girls. I was not allowed to have little friends or play outside or to even invite them home. My father and mother were very strict and so we never had friends come over to play.
The other day I watched the movie "Precious" for the first time and let me tell you this was not a pleasant experience as I found myself reflecting back to my own childhood and family life. Precious was abused, sexually and physically and had an awful childhood. Her life was absolutely nightmarish! My own childhood was definitely not a walk in the park and watching this movie, I wondered how I was able to withstand all that I suffered and all the abuse. Although, I admit my life was not as horrid as that lived by "Precious." But, it was my reality and to me it was horrible!
It was difficult to form friendships and to bond with other children when all I can think about is when will my father find me and beat me to a pulp. How can you enjoy gossiping and playing make-belief and doing girly things when you are trembling in your shoes about even being outside the house. I was expected to always stay inside the house and don't let him find me being idle. No, there was never to be any levity or playtime let alone female bonding.....
This past Friday I was invited to a get together at a friends' home to celebrate Valentine's Day and to also check out some new make-up being demonstrated by our other friend who sells cosmetics. Well, it turned into a fantastic girls night out with about 15 ladies showing up and ready to party! These were all neighbors of the hostess and I was impressed with how close they were. They all made me feel right at home and I was able to feel like I've known them all my life! We drank wine, sampled many delicacies, tried on different makeup and told funny stories. I crave this bonding and find myself wanting more. Most of my adult life, I have gotten by with little or no friends. I didn't know how to meet new friends and sustain relationships of any kind-let alone female friendships.
Next week is my 62nd birthday and in recent years I have been experiencing many firsts. To many people, 62 is old to start doing things for the first time. You might think that there are no new challenges and that I should have a "what's the use" attitude. I've got news for you-my life is just beginning! There was so much I didn't get to enjoy or experience as a child. But, that doesn't mean that I can't enjoy them now! My goal is to meet and bond with as many new female friends as I can. I will make up for all the little girls I didn't get to meet and play with when I was a little girl. This time I don't have to be afraid either!
By the way, if you haven't seen the movie "Precious" I highly recommend it!!!
The other day I watched the movie "Precious" for the first time and let me tell you this was not a pleasant experience as I found myself reflecting back to my own childhood and family life. Precious was abused, sexually and physically and had an awful childhood. Her life was absolutely nightmarish! My own childhood was definitely not a walk in the park and watching this movie, I wondered how I was able to withstand all that I suffered and all the abuse. Although, I admit my life was not as horrid as that lived by "Precious." But, it was my reality and to me it was horrible!
It was difficult to form friendships and to bond with other children when all I can think about is when will my father find me and beat me to a pulp. How can you enjoy gossiping and playing make-belief and doing girly things when you are trembling in your shoes about even being outside the house. I was expected to always stay inside the house and don't let him find me being idle. No, there was never to be any levity or playtime let alone female bonding.....
This past Friday I was invited to a get together at a friends' home to celebrate Valentine's Day and to also check out some new make-up being demonstrated by our other friend who sells cosmetics. Well, it turned into a fantastic girls night out with about 15 ladies showing up and ready to party! These were all neighbors of the hostess and I was impressed with how close they were. They all made me feel right at home and I was able to feel like I've known them all my life! We drank wine, sampled many delicacies, tried on different makeup and told funny stories. I crave this bonding and find myself wanting more. Most of my adult life, I have gotten by with little or no friends. I didn't know how to meet new friends and sustain relationships of any kind-let alone female friendships.
Next week is my 62nd birthday and in recent years I have been experiencing many firsts. To many people, 62 is old to start doing things for the first time. You might think that there are no new challenges and that I should have a "what's the use" attitude. I've got news for you-my life is just beginning! There was so much I didn't get to enjoy or experience as a child. But, that doesn't mean that I can't enjoy them now! My goal is to meet and bond with as many new female friends as I can. I will make up for all the little girls I didn't get to meet and play with when I was a little girl. This time I don't have to be afraid either!
By the way, if you haven't seen the movie "Precious" I highly recommend it!!!
Friday, February 04, 2011
My New Shiny Bicycle!
Young people and kids today have it made! They have every imaginable gadget ever invented; cell phones, flat screen tv's, mp3 players, computers, ipods and ipads-you name it they have it! Their self-image depends on how much they have. When I was growing up, we were very poor and definitely did not have the luxuries the kids have today. We were lucky to have dime store toys to play with. We were happy to have friends who felt sorry for us and let us play with their toys.
We made go-carts out of pieces of wood found in the garbage, broken skates and any rope we could find. I remember riding these go-carts down the street going like a bat out of hell with no brakes and screaming my head off from the excitement. There were kids in our neighborhood that would lend us their bikes and their skates and anything else so that we could play with them. I never owned a bicycle of my own. Only learned to ride by borrowing an English Racer from a friend and teaching myself to ride.
So fast forward to today! For the first time in my life I now own a bicycle. I am 62 years old and just recently decided that I needed to have a bicycle to ride around the neighborhood and get some exercise. After all the many years in between raising children and trying to survive and exist, I never had the opportunity to have my own bicycle.
Today was a beautiful sunny day in central Florida. The weather up to now has been very cold and uncomfortable. I have been looking forward to the temperature getting warmer and more pleasant so that I could ride my, shiny new bike. You would think I was a little girl or something like that. So, today I rode around the neighborhood with my husband.
Oh, by the way, my husband gave me this bike for Christmas!
Today, I proudly rode my shiny, new bicycle around the neighborhood and I felt like a kid again. But, this time I get to keep the bicycle and ride it again tomorrow!!!
We made go-carts out of pieces of wood found in the garbage, broken skates and any rope we could find. I remember riding these go-carts down the street going like a bat out of hell with no brakes and screaming my head off from the excitement. There were kids in our neighborhood that would lend us their bikes and their skates and anything else so that we could play with them. I never owned a bicycle of my own. Only learned to ride by borrowing an English Racer from a friend and teaching myself to ride.
So fast forward to today! For the first time in my life I now own a bicycle. I am 62 years old and just recently decided that I needed to have a bicycle to ride around the neighborhood and get some exercise. After all the many years in between raising children and trying to survive and exist, I never had the opportunity to have my own bicycle.
Today was a beautiful sunny day in central Florida. The weather up to now has been very cold and uncomfortable. I have been looking forward to the temperature getting warmer and more pleasant so that I could ride my, shiny new bike. You would think I was a little girl or something like that. So, today I rode around the neighborhood with my husband.
Oh, by the way, my husband gave me this bike for Christmas!
Today, I proudly rode my shiny, new bicycle around the neighborhood and I felt like a kid again. But, this time I get to keep the bicycle and ride it again tomorrow!!!
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Feeling Out of Sorts - Something Just Ain't Right!
Unless you've been living under a rock, you are aware that the weather has been acting weird and strange over most of the United States and also in other countries. Poor Australia has been flooded and also recently slammed by Tropical Cyclone Yasi. There are Volcanos erupting in Japan and God only knows what else is brewing that we are unaware of. So, have you felt the uneasiness and discomfort in the air? Are you experiencing headaches and unexplained body aches?
Many people I've spoken to have expressed irritability and tension in their households. They mention that there is more bickering going on than normal. And depression is running rampant! Some of my friends and neighbors are feeling ill and lackluster and not quite knowing what is wrong. Personally, I have had headaches which I don't normally suffer from. I do however, have Fibromyalgia and severe low back problems which up to now have been under control. Out of the blue a couple of weeks ago, I've started experiencing pain in my hips, legs and back severe enough to make walking difficult. The other strange thing I've noticed is that I've lost motivation to do all the things I normally enjoy. So, what could be causing all these things health issues. The weather?
In one of my previous blogs, I talked about Chemtrails-large white smoke streaks criss-crossing in the sky on any given day. There seems to be heavy spraying going on in the Florida area and I'm sure other places in the US and World! What about the awful storms which covered over 2500 miles across America? Is someone or something manipulating our weather? To my understanding these storms are very suspicious in origin as opined by reliable sources. Why is our weather going crazy all of a sudden and why are we being bombarded with these Chemtrails? I have lots of questions and few answers.....Who do we ask???
Many people I've spoken to have expressed irritability and tension in their households. They mention that there is more bickering going on than normal. And depression is running rampant! Some of my friends and neighbors are feeling ill and lackluster and not quite knowing what is wrong. Personally, I have had headaches which I don't normally suffer from. I do however, have Fibromyalgia and severe low back problems which up to now have been under control. Out of the blue a couple of weeks ago, I've started experiencing pain in my hips, legs and back severe enough to make walking difficult. The other strange thing I've noticed is that I've lost motivation to do all the things I normally enjoy. So, what could be causing all these things health issues. The weather?
In one of my previous blogs, I talked about Chemtrails-large white smoke streaks criss-crossing in the sky on any given day. There seems to be heavy spraying going on in the Florida area and I'm sure other places in the US and World! What about the awful storms which covered over 2500 miles across America? Is someone or something manipulating our weather? To my understanding these storms are very suspicious in origin as opined by reliable sources. Why is our weather going crazy all of a sudden and why are we being bombarded with these Chemtrails? I have lots of questions and few answers.....Who do we ask???
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