Manifesting By Default!

I have recently started re-reading the wonderful books and works by Esther and Jerry Hicks (The Teachings of Abraham). I have already read "Ask and It Is Given" and "The Law of Attraction". I am really looking forward to reading some of their other books. But, for now, I enjoy re-reading books from my current library especially if the material conveyed is what I consider "heavy" reading. It seems that I am guided to these types of books and material with an urgency that I can't explain. So, I guess you can say that the Law of Attraction is working through me and trying to get my attention big time.

As long as I can remember, I have tried to monitor my thoughts so that I make sure that I am manifesting what I really want and not what I don't want. This is not too easy to do. As a result, I feel that I still need alot of work and if I keep reading and re-reading my favorite books by my favorite authors maybe something will sink in and stick. Now, I am aware that there are many other wonderful books, CD's and DVD's by other well qualified authors which could help me in my quest to live the perfect life in a place called Utopia. However, something very compelling in the works of Esther and Jerry Hicks and Abraham has me mesmerized and fixated on them. I believe that the reason for this is that I had a life altering experience in 1994 which I can not explain but have always accepted because of the comfort I derived from that experience.

My life in 1994 was, to put it mildly in "shambles". I was raising two teenagers alone and was in financial trouble. Everything that could go wrong did and in spades. At night after the kids would go to bed, I would retreat to my bedroom to pray, meditate and cry out of despair. I would pray to whoever was listening to me in spirit or in the universe. Usually, I would sit on the floor or curl up like a ball while trying to keep my misery from my children. I don't remember how long or how many nights I did this routine but I felt this was what I had to do. One night after crawling into bed and turning off the lights, I had just closed my eyes when suddenly I heard a voice call out my name. I opened my eyes and listened very quietly thinking I was imagining it. Then I heard my name again and this time the voice told me not to be afraid. It felt like I was listening to the radio. The voice was very clear and resonated right there in my room all around me. It was a male voice and it was very gentle and kind sounding. He told me that even though it seemed like I'd been cursed in my life that I should not despair because everything was going to get better. My life was going to turn around and that I should just try to sleep and rest. He told me to trust in what he was saying. Surprisingly, I was not afraid and did fall asleep. Long story short, he was right! Amazingly and immediately my life took a tremendous turn for the better and although there have been some hic-cups along the way, I have not ever again felt the amount of emotional pain and despair that I felt then.

So, now, I'm back to where I started regarding re-reading certain books. I know that in 1994 I couldn't have known that I needed to focus on only what I wanted and not what I didn't want. All I know is that I was terrified about where the money was going to come from to pay the bills or even how I was going to make it to work. Yet, I was often rewarded with unexpected money coming in the mail or a commission check I didn't know was owed to me. The bills got paid and money would somehow materialize. Once I received an unexpected check for $10,000 dollars for an unexpected sale I had made at work.

My life now is wonderful and 1994 was a lifetime ago. I am and always have been a BIG believer of Angels. Did one of mine talk to me that night or did I have my own Abraham experience? I don't know. I do know this, if I was manifesting by default back in 1994, when I finally get the hang of what Esther and Jerry Hicks and Abraham are trying to teach me now........Watch out! The sky's the limit!!!!!

Mother's Day At My House This Year-We Will Have Fun!!

Mother's Day was at my house this year. I haven't done that in years because there has always been tension and sibling rivalry between my two sisters and me. It seems that when you grow up the way we did, there are so many unresolved issues. I am forever amazed at the fact that we had any chance at all to grow up and have somewhat normal lives. I make that statement cautiously as I am not sure what normalcy is. However, every now and then I experiment to see if I can achieve it and spend some family time together as other people do. I am still looking for that which I missed out on as a little girl.

There comes a time in your life where you need to evaluate what is important and what isn't. I have always been the type to let bygones-be-bygones. Some would say that I look at life through rose-colored glasses. So what's wrong with that? I take chances and risk getting hurt again. But, you know what? I know one thing........I don't have regrets because at least I try. I put myself on the line and extend the olive branch for the sake of my peace of mind and peace of heart.

When I was living at home with my parents, Mother's Day was like any other holiday. Mom would cook lechon asado (roast pork) spanish rice and for dessert we had some arroz con dulce (rice pudding). This is a traditional Puerto Rican holiday meal. That was one of the few childhood memories I can remember. I can still smell the aroma of the roast pork cooking slowly in the oven. The wonderful smells would float through out the house including the sweet smell of cinnamon which she carefully sprinkled on the rice pudding before placing it in the refrigerator.

That is such a lovely memory and thought..........Screech!!! Put on the brakes; back to reality. In walks my father and suddenly we are thrown back into the world of chaos and turmoil which is our daily life. Nerves are rattled....fear sets in and the tension is thick. He's been to the neighborhood bar again and so much for peace and quiet. You know those commercials where they show the man yelling and pounding his fists with the veins in his head swelling and the children are cowering and hiding from him and..........well you know the rest!

Well, I broke from tradition this Mother's Day and prepared delicious ribs, corn on the cob and sweet plaintains. One of my sisters brought roasted chicken. Another brought Corona beer and my sister-in-law brought a wonderful southwestern dip. Mother made a wonderful potato salad at my request. My sisters and I played in the swimming pool with our nephews and niece and the weather was gorgeous. We even had apple pie and ice cream for dessert. There was laughing and joking and nothing but fun.

My dad is 87 now- old and frail and all he said when he arrived was "You know I don't like a lot of noise" as my two poodles barked at him when he shuffled his feet as he walked across the room. I looked at him and said "well then you are in the wrong place and the wrong house and with the wrong family"........as we plan to make lots of noise today. He just snickered as he found a comfortable seat out on the patio next to my husband. I was determined that it would be a wonderful and fun day and guess what.........it was!!!

Psychic Dreams Coming True

When I was a child I was often told that I was "sensitive" and at times I was "too sensitive". Yes, things would affect me deeply and my feelings would get hurt. And yes, I cried way too easily over the simplest things or the slightest insult. In my mind, I had too curly hair or my features were too prominent. Actually, I grew up looking like I was Asian or Philipino in spite of the fact I was born in Puerto Rico. Anyway, I was always too critical of my looks and kids in school made fun of me. If anyone at home looked at me cross-eyed, you guessed it........I cried.

Later on as I grew older, the word "sensitive" took on new meaning. Now, I was actually sensing things. For example, I knew the phone was going to ring before it did. I've had many dreams that came true the next day. I had visions of disasters before they occurred and was later able to verify the occurrence. I have felt or sensed the presence of relatives before they passed away, as if saying goodbye to me. Ok, before I go on I am not like the lady on the TV show Medium. I do not keep waking my husband up every night due to foretelling dreams. I have convoluted dreams that make no sense until the next day when someone calls me or I am reminded in another way thru some kind of experience.


Here is an example of what happened a couple of nights ago. I dreamt about 2 of my sisters. We were all gathered with other friends at one of their homes. I remember it was getting late and I wanted to sleep but, she only had one bed and one baby crib. One of my sisters was sleeping in the crib with 2 babies. One which I had just put down next to her and the other child is the one she already has. There were also 2 puppies. The next morning my other sister called me all excited because her son texted her saying that he and his wife were pregnant and that the baby was due in December 2009. Today, I also found out that I am a great-grandmother! Oh, and get this, I dreamt the another night that I saw a "summons" like an eviction notice or some kind of legal document attached to my neighbors door. Well, the next day I received a summons alright to appear for jury duty!

I need to say that I suffer from Insomnia. I am a night owl! In other words, I like to stay up and work on my computer, or watch late TV and I think this is because I can't fall asleep easily. I have had this problem for many years. I believe that it stems from being afraid of the dark when I was a child. Being afraid of my drunken father might also have something to do with that(please see previous posts). I also believe that as I grew older, that falling asleep when I was totally alone, which I was for almost 9 years, meant that I had to give up control and that I would be hurt and who would be there to help me if something did happen to me. So, now unless I take a sleeping pill or wait until I am totally exhausted, I have many sleepless nights and when I do sleep I have prophetic or psychic dreams.

For sometime now, since I started taking MaxGXL to help me to sleep better, I am still struggling with Insomnia. It has been difficult to break the sleeping pill habit so I toss and turn until about 3 am. I know that once my glutathione levels are higher that my body will adjust and that eventually sleep will come. You see I like my lucid psychic dreams and when I take sleeping pills I don't dream or maybe can't remember them...........I will let you know................

The New Fabulous Me At 60!!

A few weeks ago, I turned the BIG 60!! No big thing.....right? Honestly, I didn't feel any different nor did I have some miraculous metamorphosis or would I? As a matter of fact turning 40 was more traumatic as I remember. You see, one of my sisters sent me black balloons and a black coffee cup. All of my friends sent me birthday cards expressing the same sentiment as if this was the end of my life instead of just the beginning!

Well, that was 20 years ago, and little did I know that my sister's black balloons would be symbolic of how my life would twist and turn and how I would sink so low, as if I had fallen into an abyss I could not climb out of. I went thru broken marriages, family difficulties, personal financial disaster and not the least of health concerns.

Fast forward to the present. My life couldn't be happier. I am happily married to the best husband in the world. At least that's my opinion. All of the negativity and black clouds that were over me have gone. I am healthier than I've been in many years. I feel like a NEW woman!!

I have always been a big believer in vitamin supplementation and eating well. But, my body and mind have taken quite a beating due to serious back surgery in 2006. However, I remained steadfast in my beliefs that I could help myself with positive thinking and good nutrition. The only problem was that certain medications I needed to take for severe pain, were wearing me down and now not only was I sick from pain but also due to the toxicity of the drugs I needed to take just to make my day bearable.

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Lately, I've been thinking how difficult it must be for all of those that are experiencing hard times in this very trying economy. How can someone who is concerned about next month's rent or mortgage or how they are going to pay the utility bills, maintain a positive attitude? Keeping your mind focused on work, family, or anything else, when all you are feeling is fear, anxiety and worry is one of the biggest challenges anyone can face, let alone overcome.

My heart goes out to anyone who unfortunately finds themselves in this predicament. Not too many years ago, I was in the same boat. At the time, I was raising children, paying a mortgage, car payment and everything that comes along with taking care of a family as a single parent. I had just lost my job and to make matters worse, I was in a severe car accident which laid me up for about a month. I had no one to help me except for my 15 year old daughter.Needless to say, I had many sleepless nights!

So I know a little about suffering set backs. I remember thinking then, what am I going to do? How will I manage? I also remember the lonely nights in my bedroom after my children had gone to bed crying in sheer desperation and fear and asking God to please help me to figure things out.

Somewhere during all of this torment, I was able to reach deep down in my soul and found a way to find the positives in all that I was experiencing. I decided that I had two choices; to give up and go crazy or to pick myself up and work on my problems one at a time. I started listening to every self-help tape I could afford. My favorite was always anything by Wayne Dyer. I spent a lot of time in deep meditation. I started practicing the Law of Attraction without even knowing that I was doing it! I made an effort to learn the lessons in all that happened.

I was able to turn my life around just by changing the way I think. Don't get me wrong things didn't just miraculously turn around. It took effort and some work on my part. But, the important thing is that I learned how to live my life better through positive thinking!

Today, nothing has changed. We still face the same problems and maybe worse. There are so many people who are facing jobs losses, foreclosures and more. Trying to maintain a positive outlook is easier said than done. However, no matter how dire we think our problems are, there is someone else suffering worse. The point is that we are able to overcome anything and if we maintain a positive thinking attitude and look forward, we can turn things around!

It Is Such A Relief When It Ends..................

Yesterday, I took down the Christmas Tree and all of the beautiful decorations that I had all over the house. It took all day to carefully wrap my treasured Santa Claus collection. There are many, and the children loved them. My daughter-in-law said that my house looked like Santa's Workshop My beautiful wreaths were all place in their special container, being careful not to crush them.

It seems like such a let down, when a couple of weeks before I was running all over to pick just the right gifts for my loved ones. I was busily trying to accommodate and entertain my out of town guests who were visiting for the Holidays! I was trying to remember who to pick up last minute gifts for and also thinking about how to plan when to serve Christmas dinner. Do we eat Christmas Eve or on Christmas Day? We decided that it was best to have my daughter and her two children, plus an invited friend, to join us on Christmas Eve and spend the night so that we could have Christmas morning together and the children would all be there to open their presents. Oh, how wonderful that was for me. I have not spent Christmas with both of my children together in over 10 years. The emotions were running high for me. I don't think they really understood how it made me feel to be surrounded by the people I love the most!

The weather here in Florida was absolutely gorgeous and still is. The Children, grandchildren and guest are gone and home safely doing their routines and living their lives. And as I contemplate all that took place over the last few weeks, all of the hustle and bustle, all of the adrenalin mustered to stay energized and as I look over my house neatly back the way it used to be, I am so happy to get my life back to normal. I love to see The Holiday Season come, however it is such a relief when it ends!!!