When I was a child I was often told that I was "sensitive" and at times I was "too sensitive". Yes, things would affect me deeply and my feelings would get hurt. And yes, I cried way too easily over the simplest things or the slightest insult. In my mind, I had too curly hair or my features were too prominent. Actually, I grew up looking like I was Asian or Philipino in spite of the fact I was born in Puerto Rico. Anyway, I was always too critical of my looks and kids in school made fun of me. If anyone at home looked at me cross-eyed, you guessed it........I cried.
Later on as I grew older, the word "sensitive" took on new meaning. Now, I was actually sensing things. For example, I knew the phone was going to ring before it did. I've had many dreams that came true the next day. I had visions of disasters before they occurred and was later able to verify the occurrence. I have felt or sensed the presence of relatives before they passed away, as if saying goodbye to me. Ok, before I go on I am not like the lady on the TV show Medium. I do not keep waking my husband up every night due to foretelling dreams. I have convoluted dreams that make no sense until the next day when someone calls me or I am reminded in another way thru some kind of experience.
Here is an example of what happened a couple of nights ago. I dreamt about 2 of my sisters. We were all gathered with other friends at one of their homes. I remember it was getting late and I wanted to sleep but, she only had one bed and one baby crib. One of my sisters was sleeping in the crib with 2 babies. One which I had just put down next to her and the other child is the one she already has. There were also 2 puppies. The next morning my other sister called me all excited because her son texted her saying that he and his wife were pregnant and that the baby was due in December 2009. Today, I also found out that I am a great-grandmother! Oh, and get this, I dreamt the another night that I saw a "summons" like an eviction notice or some kind of legal document attached to my neighbors door. Well, the next day I received a summons alright to appear for jury duty!
I need to say that I suffer from Insomnia. I am a night owl! In other words, I like to stay up and work on my computer, or watch late TV and I think this is because I can't fall asleep easily. I have had this problem for many years. I believe that it stems from being afraid of the dark when I was a child. Being afraid of my drunken father might also have something to do with that(please see previous posts). I also believe that as I grew older, that falling asleep when I was totally alone, which I was for almost 9 years, meant that I had to give up control and that I would be hurt and who would be there to help me if something did happen to me. So, now unless I take a sleeping pill or wait until I am totally exhausted, I have many sleepless nights and when I do sleep I have prophetic or psychic dreams.
For sometime now, since I started taking MaxGXL to help me to sleep better, I am still struggling with Insomnia. It has been difficult to break the sleeping pill habit so I toss and turn until about 3 am. I know that once my glutathione levels are higher that my body will adjust and that eventually sleep will come. You see I like my lucid psychic dreams and when I take sleeping pills I don't dream or maybe can't remember them...........I will let you know................
About Me
- Angela Zechinato
- Viera, Florida, United States
- Living the Florida Lifestyle with my husband Max and enjoying my life with 2 furry poodles Sissy and Missy who I call my children. My human children are all grown and on their own. I am a proud grandmother of 5. We live in Sunny, Central Florida in a gorgeous house on a lake. I am blessed to have overcome my abusive upbringing and have decided that it is time to write about it to help others who experienced the same physical and emotional abuse. This Blog is dedicated to those who have remained silent!!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
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