Manifesting By Default!

I have recently started re-reading the wonderful books and works by Esther and Jerry Hicks (The Teachings of Abraham). I have already read "Ask and It Is Given" and "The Law of Attraction". I am really looking forward to reading some of their other books. But, for now, I enjoy re-reading books from my current library especially if the material conveyed is what I consider "heavy" reading. It seems that I am guided to these types of books and material with an urgency that I can't explain. So, I guess you can say that the Law of Attraction is working through me and trying to get my attention big time.

As long as I can remember, I have tried to monitor my thoughts so that I make sure that I am manifesting what I really want and not what I don't want. This is not too easy to do. As a result, I feel that I still need alot of work and if I keep reading and re-reading my favorite books by my favorite authors maybe something will sink in and stick. Now, I am aware that there are many other wonderful books, CD's and DVD's by other well qualified authors which could help me in my quest to live the perfect life in a place called Utopia. However, something very compelling in the works of Esther and Jerry Hicks and Abraham has me mesmerized and fixated on them. I believe that the reason for this is that I had a life altering experience in 1994 which I can not explain but have always accepted because of the comfort I derived from that experience.

My life in 1994 was, to put it mildly in "shambles". I was raising two teenagers alone and was in financial trouble. Everything that could go wrong did and in spades. At night after the kids would go to bed, I would retreat to my bedroom to pray, meditate and cry out of despair. I would pray to whoever was listening to me in spirit or in the universe. Usually, I would sit on the floor or curl up like a ball while trying to keep my misery from my children. I don't remember how long or how many nights I did this routine but I felt this was what I had to do. One night after crawling into bed and turning off the lights, I had just closed my eyes when suddenly I heard a voice call out my name. I opened my eyes and listened very quietly thinking I was imagining it. Then I heard my name again and this time the voice told me not to be afraid. It felt like I was listening to the radio. The voice was very clear and resonated right there in my room all around me. It was a male voice and it was very gentle and kind sounding. He told me that even though it seemed like I'd been cursed in my life that I should not despair because everything was going to get better. My life was going to turn around and that I should just try to sleep and rest. He told me to trust in what he was saying. Surprisingly, I was not afraid and did fall asleep. Long story short, he was right! Amazingly and immediately my life took a tremendous turn for the better and although there have been some hic-cups along the way, I have not ever again felt the amount of emotional pain and despair that I felt then.

So, now, I'm back to where I started regarding re-reading certain books. I know that in 1994 I couldn't have known that I needed to focus on only what I wanted and not what I didn't want. All I know is that I was terrified about where the money was going to come from to pay the bills or even how I was going to make it to work. Yet, I was often rewarded with unexpected money coming in the mail or a commission check I didn't know was owed to me. The bills got paid and money would somehow materialize. Once I received an unexpected check for $10,000 dollars for an unexpected sale I had made at work.

My life now is wonderful and 1994 was a lifetime ago. I am and always have been a BIG believer of Angels. Did one of mine talk to me that night or did I have my own Abraham experience? I don't know. I do know this, if I was manifesting by default back in 1994, when I finally get the hang of what Esther and Jerry Hicks and Abraham are trying to teach me now........Watch out! The sky's the limit!!!!!